She...

She sat staring off into nothing in particular...

The warm breeze of night,

danced about her,

whispering, beckoning.

She sighs...

and tears well in her eyes

cascading down her cheek.

She shakes her head.

Hoping the thoughts go as well...

But they don't.

She looks up to the blackish blue sky,

lit up with thousands of stars.

Closing her eyes,

She hears a distant howl..

The faint strain of a car engine climbing a hill.

All the rest is silence.

She criss crosses her arms

across her chest,

breathing in her self hug.

Catching her face in  cupped hands,

her body racks in sobs...

It doesn't last long.

It rarely does.

It is not the release she seeks.

A deep inhale and exhale..

A cleansing breath...

Right.

She glances about the harmony

She created outdoors;

Still the desired comfort evades.

She yawns, slicing the quiet.

Not from longing sleep.

The weariness is familiar,

slowly eroding her usual positivity...

She used to feel so aware.

She used to take pride

in her ability to perceive...

to sense her needs.

Now,  the numbness begins to creep,

stealing the recognition starting to bud...

Like a wild, stormy ocean of waves,

She stills to a calm, still pond...

She blinks.

She swallows.

She sat staring off into nothing in particular...

~ dkb ~