from Google images....
Poppies are such happy little flowers...
I've been googling images
hoping it will distract
the spasms in my back...
I need to exercise....but I don't want to. Otherwise I would do more of it...maybe it is the heat? No, it is an intense dislike for exercise....unless it involves dancing I'm not interested. We are hibernating inside the house to stay cool.
While eating lunch the other day, I was playing a game on my iPad. I decided every time I got a 15 free spin bonus, I would stand and do the Twist to the zippy music...Fortunately, or unfortunately, the free spins kept coming and I kept Twisting, until it was easier to just stop playing the game.
Yesterday I woke up sore from my ribs down to my waist...and my back, right side ribs are spasming...
The numbers on my scale this morning indicate my anti exercise attitude needs to change.
Looking back, I remember myself saying, "Oh my Lord....there is NO WAY I'm going to weigh...." and then not only do I pass that weight, but continue to gain even more. I have said it before, but I far surpassed the weight I was when I was pregnant with my both my girls more than 33 years ago...
I NEVER thought I would ever weigh what I do...and I have only myself to blame.
I scheduled my MRI with and without contrast for next Tuesday. Despite my claustrophobia, I have had to change my attitude. I can be brave and endure for 45 minutes. I will take the sedation meds and focus on the faces of my three grand sons...their faces will get me through...
I want to be a happy, cheerful little Poppy, so I have to change my attitude and thinking...
I don't want to, but I am going up to our gym, with my bathing suit and walking the pool. Every day I vow to move for at least one hour in some form of exercise. I want to live. I want to lose weight, therefore I must move. I confess this to the world to be accountable for my actions.
Living in denial, stunts my life.
~dkb~
