I can't hide forever...

I have been hesitating in writing anything.  I feel very exposed.  Way, way, way, too emotional....Psychotic and Catatonic...

I know the last thing one is supposed to be with real estate, is to be emotional...   I have officially smashed that rule into a million teeny, tiny pieces...

I have spent the the past week, since returning from CALI, crying or being indecisive.  I feel like a champion match ping pong ball on Red Bull and CRACK!  Can't sleep, can't eat, stomach in knots, running to the toilet...and I can't seem to complete a sentence.

In between this chaos, I had a tooth pulled, filed our taxes -- which had an error and had to be re-filed with additonal monies to pay our tax bill, all the while keeping the house "spit spot" for the parade of strangers inspecting our home. 3 Realtors have brought 3 sets of clients this week.  One of the Realtors brought a couple back twice...  and they made us a low ball offer.  They offered $18,900 less than our offer, wanted $3,000 back in Escrow, want all of our appliances (which are listed as going with us in the MLS), and for us to pay the Capital Contribution fees (which are the fees we paid when we moved into this communtiy.  It basically goes into the Community Kitty of our HOA). We are countering and standing firm, so no doubt they will move on...but we already feel we are GIVING OUR HOUSE away....my husband thought their offer was insulting.

We did find a new home in a 55+ Communtiy in Hemet, CA.  Right now, the Hemet Police Department is being attacked by Gangs...  This is what is posted on the Hemet Police website:

"$200,000 REWARD OFFERED!

A $200,000 reward is being offered for information leading to the arrest

and convictions of the person or persons responsible for the attacks against

the Hemet Police Department and the Hemet/San Jacinto Regional Gang Task Force."

 

Nice, huh?

 

The house would not be built until the end of September

which is when my daughter's baby is due

and is my husband's birthday...

Did I mention another of the stipulations

in the "offer" of the folks who want

us to "give them" our home...

is to be out of our home by June 9th,

which is my birthday weekend...??

 

We were "considering" this new home

mainly because of all the crappy houses

we saw "on the market",

 it was the lowest price

(Still $30,000 more than what we

WANTED to pay),

and

the builder is offering

$20,000 in upgrades

to use their lender

before the end of April.

 

It is

located in a city

we are not particularly

excited about living.

We would have

to do a

 Reverse Mortgage

to be able

 to afford it.

 

Hell...

We'll have to do

a Reverse Mortgage

to afford

to stay

in our home, here!

If my husband retires,

which he NEEDS to  do...

that is what we are

faced with...

 

Its

a

sign

of

the

times.

 

I am afraid

if we don't move back to

Calif NOW,

we may be PRICED OUT

of

the

market

in another 3-5 years.

 

I could live here

another 2-5 years

but no longer.

I want to be

with my family...

 

I

know

I

can't

hide

forever...

and

I don't want

to disappoint

Jerry

with my

"fraidy-cat"

attitude...

I

am

hanging on

tight;

but,

have

no

idea

what

will

happen

or

where

we

will

end

up.

 

Stay tuned.